You will never read this....

I Love You....
Well there, I said it at long last.
And the thing is you have no idea....
none at all.
The years have stretched now into eternity
and yet....
the longing is still as painful as it was when we meet.
I cling to ever moment of time we have had together like
a raven hording his pieces of shine junk....

I still dream of you....

And yet there is the reality of what is.
You will never read this....
You will never know the joy that burns in my soul when ever it is that you call....
You will never understand the pleasure that awakens when I see you....
You smile at me, and I die just a touch more....

Down the Dark Tunnel

And Yet it seems....
Happiness was a dream? But who's fault is that?
The desire to blame the shadowy figures of my past screams up at me like twisting sounds of a car crash....
but....
Where is my own ability to create joy?
Was it their failure
or mine?
I stare down the long tunnel and wonder....
My escapes have failed me
All is emptiness and silence....
So I move forward, looking for the light at the end....
After all, it is my life....
So I must find my own salvation and my own reasons to dance....