Well There It Is...

Drawn, as I am to this...

Standing still but falling is just the emotion I crave.
Skipping into yesterday and making it more.
The losing of heart.
The finding of friend.
Doubling down on what might be....

Damn, how do I explain?

I want bright moons of more then one.
Emptiness that is filled with gem stones.
Lonelyness touched with sweat.
Lighting that I can handle and put into a jar...

Well there it is.
My wants and wishes...

And still I have no idea of what it is I am doing...

For HOPE...

Fiercely...
It comes in like tidal waves.
This feeling of change.
Happiness steps forward and slaps me across the face.

(Sometimes its the only way to get my attention!)

Joy stands behind waiting to punch me in the eye...
Yes, sometimes I just don't get it.
Being subtle with me never really works.

I have never been known for my ability to scoop up Hope.
Yet there she stands...
Waiting for me to turn and embrace her.
Shaking her head, she finally just comes to me.

(Like I said, I am not really good at this!)

Feeling yet unworthy of my good fortune.
I force myself to stand still long enough for Hope to lay hold of me.
She grabs me and we at last embrace...

I see forward, and strangely the view is bright.
And Hope hands me my shades and takes me by the hand.
She steps forward into the light pulling me along...

And then,
at last,
I smile...

This I am!

They told me no.
But I said YES!

I have so little of myself left, that I fear to share...

But yet...
Share, I will with you.

Hope is all I have left as I watch the Sun rise.
If I wish to breathe.
I have to believe that Love is real!
That the dream comes true!

Fragile...
This I am.

Broken as I am.
But whole to the wishing that joy is there.
That even in the dark, that light still shines.
That in silence, I can hear the music...

Oh Gods, the risk..................
Pain, so sharp and touching.
Fear, so fresh and bright.
Tears, and there they flow....

And there it is.
This longing for that which I want so badly...
I can't step away from danger.
What if this truly the time?

So, once again I will trust in Love.
And with a smile and tears take what comes...

This I am!