Flash of Light...

It happened as the rain began to fall.
With it's growing breeze and flash of light.
A hunger,
a sounding,
a rush of wanting more...

It has been coming.
This want to escape the weeping of my soul.
It has been coming.
The anguish of feeling failure, where truly there was none.
It has happened.
That I am more then things unfinished.
It will be that.
I am more, then what I let others make of me...

The feeling on the wind tells of longing,
a song I know so well...
While the rain speaks of letting go,
the lighting laughs with its voice of thunder...

This coming to an end,
but dancing to a beginning signals something the rain and I finally know.
That Joy is in the moment and that I am master of my fate.
My heart is right and my soul my own.
And the lies told upon the wind,
will be gone before I know it.

Not everything is finished and creating I will go.
Till the lighting fades and the wind grows still.
This is the wisdom I finally know.

One Step to Far...

The madness is stirring and becoming more.
All is not as it seems.
Alone with my head I seem to slip and become that which I fear...
What is it that I should say?
And do?
and yet...
I crave this insanity, I have for a very long time.
Sadly I know why...
It doesn't stop it at all
It fills the VOID!
It is something gifted to me by others...
I know I am crazy
but...
I don't really care...

Trying to Fix it...

Frustration at the fact I can not fix it...
These problems in your head.
So small,
so young,
to fight such troubles now...
Left with standing strong,
so when you wobble...
Catch you I can.

Over and Over and Over!

Over and Over and Over!
Slipping up (or maybe down),
I step forward into going backwards...
Lacking something yet undefined I stumble on.
Over and Over and Over!!
What am I doing wrong, where is the failure?
I often wonder if I am alone in this.
Is it just me that is tripped up by the same things...
Over and Over and Over!!!
Trying and yet once more...
I step out to meet the day and find my inability.
I run forward, only to trip and fall.
Over and Over and Over!!!!
Reaching to grasp, but my hands find nothing to hold to.
Yet the fall has become familiar...
And so with a smile on my face, I go forth to fall on it once again...

And wishing you knew me...

So I was thinking....
and we all know how that goes?
That maybe you don't understand...
The reality of my life has no real bearing in yours!
You walk saying that you understand
yet
no yet...
You have no idea...
don't get me wrong........................................
I
WISH
YOU
DID!!!

But, at last you do not...

I would explain
truly I would....
but
what would we talk about???????
and what would we say????????

Your love bonds me to a place I do not know....
as real as it is...

it is still real!
(thanks)
But...

You do not know
and

JUST LOVE ME STILL...

Meeting Summer on Her first day...

It sprang like music you can't quite hear,
rosy light from somewhere else...

Summer's first day and I am here to greet you.
She has and always will be my favorite!
Dressed in light and warmth, She arrives.

Just knowing She is here brings me joy.
In her eyes I see the vacations begin.
School is ended and playing has begun...

Picnics and fireworks,
Hiking and parades,
Travels and sun filled places,
Beaches and mountain tops...

All these things she has for me.
(And yes, for you as well)

So it is that I am awake and awaiting her.
Looking forward to all the joy she brings!

Walk with Wisdom
Stand with Strength
Kneel with Knowledge
Pray with Power
Dance with Dexterity
Please with Passion
Live with LOVE