Twisted Grin

There is fire behind your eyes.
Add to the twisted grin,
pointed nose, I smile.
Seeing you, heralds the end of warmth.
But the beginning of the holidays.
So smile on,
you scary orange friend.
And I will do the same...

The Wild Hunt

I hear the ancient call

of the wild hunt.

Oh, to be shadow filled once more

and drink wild moonlight.

To kiss the stars

and fight with an angry sun.

Songs of battles and war

sing off my tongue

as spiders and trees join the chorus.

I am one with Earth and Sky.

I am Hunter and Prey.

I am Death and Salvation.

Now to make love to a sky

and reluctant moon,

before taking my place in the

wild hunt.

Fleeing the dawn, 

I follow the winds and the scent

of promise.

And with the call of horn 

and hoof,

I will ride the night

till only the darkness and I 

remain...

Make Do...

I am handling well...

(or at least for now it seems)

Same old same old

tragic as it seems.

My wants and needs are unknown.

Focus...

Is in restoring you back to you being you.

The reality of all of this

is

it will all just happen again.

Unavoidable

The tragedy of all this is that it was

avoidable...

And yet not!

Patterns and weaves of fate were

fashioned long before 

I arrived on the scene.

In all of this Love is not even enough.

Just a reminder of another

failure.

My wants and needs are left wanting.

So we make do.

Attempting to heal the shell.

With the motion I go,

holding dear to what sanity I can.

And helping the rest do the same.

If only I could heal you?

But this an empty wish.

So we, once again

make do...

That's all I and others have left!

Make do...

Once again, we just make do.

And we handle it well...

This time?

Tripped up as I was
by your wellbeing.
Sadly, I mistaked it for so much more.
Is this real, this time?
Or just me,
being me...
Passion it was but,
Meaningless I fear.
So empty I sip my cup
while wishing you never came...

While You Decide

Wake me up!
I have dreamed to long...
Or is this waking?

Trapped in other people's visions
and nightmares has left me
empty...
So I choose to be something else.

Skipping forward into now.
I'm less likely to snap and go mad.
Shaking loose the weight
of your troubles leaves me free.

You mistake this for uncaring
for unfeeling or emptiness.
But, wrong you are.
All I have done is let you go...
I have only control over myself.
You will do and be
as you see fit...

As always, I am there for you.
But having let go of the worry.
My hopes and prayers go with you,
now and forever.
But no longer will I wait...
No longer will I put myself
on hold while you decide.
No longer will I share the nightmares
you hold so dear...

I have my own dreams.
(and my own nightmares)
And I must follow them...
I have awakened!
And can only hope that you will
do likewise...

My Heart In Steel

It's been awhile...
So long
that I can't even tell you when.
Yet...
Not long enough!
The pain still burns
and the hurt lingers still.
As the bringer of chaos and disilliousion,
your return is more then disquieting.
I severed those bonds years ago.
In the hopes of peace.
Cutting them nearly killed me,
So the thought of revisiting
all this once more, leaves me screaming.
You come in peace,
or so you say...
But sadly, you have never known
what that means.
So I surround my heart in steel
and iron.
And with shield and sword in hand,
go forth to meet you once more.

Stop Echoing

It's happening again...

My eyes close in exhaustion
     and the voices return.
"Why, Why, Why", they chant.
     And once again I answer,
in screams of "I don't know!".

My eyes open,
     Seeing only dark and more night.
This is not the way I planned
     my evening.
Then again, this is not the way I
     planned my Life!

Restless and alone,
     I close my eyes to try again.
Wishing for sleep,
     for answers,
for my dreams to stop
     Echoing my days.

It's happening again...