Want and Need

So I was sitting there with myself.
OK, not the best of company but...
The ghosts of what I want and need are demanding attention!
I don't want to be alone anymore...
I watch some people find it.

and

I stand on the sidelines....
I am aware of the problems.
Me being me.
But...
The joy of me is that I am as I am...

Yet I wait for that which fulfills.
And my life is still so not like the movies...

So alone I move forward,
and trying to be ok with that...

I need to skip forward to the end,
and hope for the best....