"Lighten The Load" He Says...

His words fell like lighting out clear blue skies.
This master of the atom.
Sharing wisdom in a way that defied explanation...

In being buried to deep I have lost the light.
Trapped, you might say, into becoming a mushroom.
Given the option of flight or life as the decomposer,
I go looking for my wings...

I left them here somewhere??

"Lighten the load" he says, and I move out to throw away that which holds me still.
"More thrust, more lift and less drag" He says, and I go out to hunt the winds.
Casting off this weight of ancient anger and wrappings of self doubt.
Daring to find the rising thermals of worth that might give me lift...

He, who dances with energy would know these thing.
And in his wisdom, I will trust.

Today is yet another day.
Yet another chance to rise.
And given the reality of life as the kiwi mushroom or
soaring the skies on winds of chance and fate...
I will attempt to rise.
Risk the jump and try to FLY!

(To Aaron, Thanks for the comments)

Two Different Things...

It is the lack there of that I find so frustrating...

I am more then this!
(Or maybe I'm not.)

You see, my heart is full for everyone but myself.
Twilight has ended and brought the dawn but,
left me still standing with the stars...

This seed that has grown in other has failed to sprout in me.
I have watered and cared, so have countless others.
Yet, nothing grows...

This flaw prevents so many things.
And holds me back from love and life.
The sun has risen and yet all I see is night...

Knowing I am worth more but selling myself for nothing,
leaves me open to the madness and chaos of yesterday.
For me there is no tomorrow...

But none of this is real.
Its a Lie, no matter how many times I tell it.
Yet knowing and feeling are two different things...

So I awake to a dawn I know is there but can not see.
I rise to spend myself for more then I feel I am worth.
And in Faith of those who know me best,
I will work for a tomorrow I can not find...

What the HELL!!!!

The sound is still here and I want it...
Yet no one knows?
Drifting as I do, I move west and into the green...
There is the beauty I seek.
Understanding has no place here and I seek the moment.
How do I even try to explain?
And Kim says I don't...
But what does she know....
They will bring the air and I will enjoy.
You see but yet you don't.
I sleep but yet I don't...
I turned the sound off but still it calls.
Naked I walk towards my emptiness and embrace the anger!
(What was I hearing???)
The West calls again and I want to move into.
I think Kim lies...
So I move towards my sleep and breathing
and step into my now...
life was so much easyer yesterday....