Adopting Failure...

It's late...
as I sit here alone, the epiphany comes
and goes.
I was taught to adopt failure.
Given
(as I was)
In the hopes that there was hope.
A better future.

It did not happen.

The slow anger that builds.
The failures of the past.
Unspoken complicity of the unlooking...
And the amazing care of those who tried!

Adopted the ways and failures of others.
Fearing myself as I did.
What choice did I have?
Childhood can last forever...
And the death I longed for never came.
You said you loved???

So I am here adopting
all that is different then the past.
Lucky and blessed,
as I am to have those who did care.
I will adopt you...
Those who have shown me Light.
Sisters, cousins, aunts, grandma's...
Uncles and dear friends who took me as I am....

I have failed.
Oh, Yes I have!
But I move on....
It is I who choose what it is that I adopt.
And I adopt...
LOVE