Let Me Go...

Let me go...
The anguish burns and pulses 
with every silence.
Letting go of you seems impossible! 
(The gods know I've tried.)
But...
I bleed longing.
Craving you, hurts in ways unknown. 
Waiting as I do,
on your anger and pain...
I feel like an addict of sorts.
"Holding on for your call..."
As the song says!
So let me go...
Please!!!
Crushed and broken you have made me.
So let me go...
Drifting from sorrow to desire,
you leave me all alone. 
Broken souled and empty hearted,
I run to tears.
So let me go...
Trapped in the maze that is you!
I scream and want more.
The danger you hold brings me joy.
Your denial paints my vision.
So let me go...
So I run to you once again.
Begging your pain and rejection. 
Knowing this is killing me.
So I ask again.
Let Me Go....

There Was You

I was trying to explain you see...
     (It's my own fault for not sharing.)
There was so much hidden.
So much I pretended wasn't there. 
      Rejection was such a fear,
along with my own pastel issues...
Oh wait, I was explaining!
      Yet there it was...
What I was looking for,
being everything I was trying so
      hard to avoid.
The artist pallet of mistakes from
times before...
      And then there was You!
Damn it...
      I skipped to moving on.
I pretended I did not care!
      Telling you that I was not!?!
I built walls of contempt, 
in the hopes of escape....
     And yet
there was you waiting inside
     my heart....
So I take my own advise and
     leap!
Seeing where and if I land...