There Was You

I was trying to explain you see...
     (It's my own fault for not sharing.)
There was so much hidden.
So much I pretended wasn't there. 
      Rejection was such a fear,
along with my own pastel issues...
Oh wait, I was explaining!
      Yet there it was...
What I was looking for,
being everything I was trying so
      hard to avoid.
The artist pallet of mistakes from
times before...
      And then there was You!
Damn it...
      I skipped to moving on.
I pretended I did not care!
      Telling you that I was not!?!
I built walls of contempt, 
in the hopes of escape....
     And yet
there was you waiting inside
     my heart....
So I take my own advise and
     leap!
Seeing where and if I land...